Friday, November 7, 2008

Surreal...

Our computer is still D-E-A-D, but couldn't NOT write about what I experienced yesterday.
After work at UCLA, I emerged from the children's dental clinic and found about six helicopters circling the skies. All the buses had been rerouted, and I found myself wandering down the streets to find a way to get home to watch Hayden's chorus concert. Traffic had stopped. Sirens wailed. Streets were blocked off. Random people with signs were coming up to anybody who would listen saying, "If you wanna join in, we're converging on the Mormon church!"

...And by "Mormon Church," I knew they meant the Los Angeles Temple, which was just a few blocks away.

As I plodded along, now within a couple of blocks of the temple, and a half a mile from work, more sirens began to wail. On three flat bed trucks, standing ready to jump off as soon as they reached their destination, dozens of police in full riot gear made their way to the sacred, usually serene grounds that people of my faith worship.

Let me make clear, this is not an ordinary meeting house. This is a step beyond--where we make sacred vows to our Heavenly Father; where we kneel across an altar to marry for time and eternity. The interior is usually so quiet, you can almost hear a pin drop. Once patrons enter, they shrug off the cares of the outside world and devote their minds and hearts to prayer, meditation, and learning. The environment is peace and tranquility in its purest essence.

But yesterday, the outside world came clamoring to the temple gates. And with their venom and a form of bigotry I have never experienced before, a SWAT team followed in their wake. 2000-3000 gay and lesbian advocates loudly expressed their disapproval at the outcome of the recent Proposition 8, which put in place a constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage. Wrongfully, they assumed the many members of the church that contributed to the cause had an agenda that included hate.

I thought this picture summed up the hostility that I witnessed very succinctly:
In the background is a sign saying "No on 8... End Hate." I see in the foreground the very personification of hate, as an angry man shouts and incites contention at the top of his lungs.

I have many thoughts on this battle that rages, and I hope you'll indulge me as I purge my system of these thoughts:

  1. Can you imagine what would have happened if this protest had been organized in front of a Muslim Mosque or Jewish Synagogue? Or what about in front of one of the Catholic churches or Baptist ministries that inspired "Yes on 8" sentiments to their parishioners? 70% of minorities in California voted "Yes" on this very matter, but you don't see angry protesters yelling horrible insults to Blacks or Hispanics as a whole. One would never even dream of doing such a thing in a state which cries "Tolerance!" for everyone. Apparently, these folks have no tolerance for Mormons, because we are often marginalized and misunderstood. We are thought by many to be a satanic cult, or a dangerous brainwashing machine, hell-bent on converting the populous whether they like it or not. We are often confused with the polygamous FLDS-type sects that wed their 14-year old neighbors. And this, along with an ideology that does not encompass gay marriage (but does NOT diminish gay civil unions), has put us on the radar of many who wish to stir things up against members of our faith.
  2. The political process went forth. The majority has spoken. Other states like Florida and Arizona passed similar amendments on the same day. They are not suffering the same insults as we are here in the Left-Coast. I am reminded of a boy who came up to me on my first day of High School in Georgia. He sat down across from me at lunch, peered at me with skepticism and said, "Did y'all have a hard time gettin' dates out thar in California?" When I answered,"No. Why?" He said, "Well, aren't all them guys out there gay?" I was taken aback, because I had not expected that perception of California... Surfer dudes--yes. Gay guys--No. But this is another one of those events that is going to further embitter people about gays and perpetuate the reputation of California as "The Land of Fruits and Nuts."
  3. I have no ill will towards gays. I have worked with several. I know them to be regular people who feel deeply about their partners. I am NOT a gay basher because I voted yes on Prop 8. I do NOT feel any hatred toward them. But PLEASE don't spit on my beliefs and desecrate the things that I believe are holy because your cause did not persuade the majority. We are not tyrannical, bigots as you spew in your negative campaigns and protests. We simply believe in the sacred and divine institution of marriage between a man and a woman.

I walked the three-or-so miles home and managed to make it in time for Hayden's concert (which was great, by the way). But I will NEVER forget that walk. I will forever be changed by the imagery of that night: particularly the juxtiposition of the peaceful temple grounds and the SWAT team serving as a blockade to prevent violence on its soil. I now know I live within walking distance of a temple. I have blisters on my feet from the trek, but I know it's really only a stone's throw away. I have no excuse to take it for granted. If the protestors were aiming at putting into doubt my ideology or intimidate people like me into feeling shame at my faith, their plans sorely backfired. I have never desired more to enter those temple doors and shut out the ferocity of the world outside.

If you are interested, you can click on this link to see the LDS church's response to the recent protests.

16 comments:

Christine said...

Wow Shana! Scary! I find it very hypocritical to say "End the Hate" and then act like that.

Jason said...

Shana,

Never in my life have I been accused of being full of hate until lately. Funny how the person who said it, said with spite. Wowzers though, I saw this on the news this morning and was a bit floored, but you were there. I dont even know what to say to this except that Old Scratch aint happy with Church. That must mean we are doing something right, eh?

Wonder Woman said...

I was thinking about you a few days ago and wondered why we hadn't heard from you.....then I remember the sad fate of your computer.

But thank you for taking time to give us this narrative. Your first hand account was haunting. I'm glad you're safe. And I hope this hate ends soon.

Mommalynne said...

Thank you Shana. I'm so glad you got home safely. It must have seemed like a little bit of "Hell" there, with the Temple standing on the hill as the only sanctuary.
I'm trying so hard not to be angry. I had some negative experiences, personally, and I try to de-personalize it.

It is so irritating to be called a hateful bigot when you feel no hatred and aren't even angry.

No one can tell me how I feel! I am not homophobic, bigotted or hateful. But the other side cannot interpret my feelings any other way, because they are so angry! And nothing can solved by arguing anyway.

Its not likely that many of the kind of people who would protest, block up all the streets with disregard for everyone else, yell and insult everyone who disagrees with them, could ever be reasoned with. At least not yet.

I hope they gained more critics than friends. but, the news is still not a bit outraged about it. It boggles the mind!

Natalie N said...

Hey Shana,
Great post. I was just writing my own 2 cents about this topic, and I came across your blog. How crazy to have witnessed this! Glad you were safe and so was the temple...
Hope you don't mind if I link this post on my blog. It was a great read!

Katie said...

What an amazing experience to tell the grandkids someday! i can't believe you were in the middle of that. Actually, I had no idea these kinds of riots are STILL going on after the fact. I totally agree with your thoughts.

The Integrator said...

Lets not hate the hate that hate's the perceived hate.
My vote on 8 is that we take a moment to think about that...

Di said...

Its pretty crazy out there in CA right now. You can't help but see the irony in persecuting a group of people for their religious beliefs all in the name of open-minded liberalism, "equality" and "love".
Who knew the rainbow would ever be used as a symbol of violent protest? It looks so happy and pretty...

Rhonda said...

Shana, I have missed ya here on blogspot.com but so glad you posted this post. What a great testament to conviction. Hang in there....we lost the opportunity to even vote on it here in CT.

Kelti said...

If the whole dentistry thing doesn't work out you should look into being a writer. Great post. All I can say is AMEN.

Annie said...

What an incredible perspective. You painted your experience so vividly I felt like I was right there with you.
Drew and I have been keeping close tabs on all this from Korea. The aftermath of prop 8 has been unbelievable. I suppose we are forever a persecuted or rather a peculuar people. Yes we were one of the MANY churches that supported this prop but we are taking the heat for it all. We will always stand out. I hope all who represent this church will represent it as well as you do. Your thought process and action is about as rational, logical and understanding as they come.

What else are we to do?

Mary said...

I am one of Natalie Nelson's friends and I was reading her blog and followed to yours. I live in Oregon and we passed the same measure here in our own "liberal" state 4 years ago--obviously without the same backlash. I have been wanting to find out how people there are experiencing it. Feeling more than a little discouraged about what I've been reading, I was suprised to find myself inspired by your first hand perspective. We are indeed blessed to have the temple.

Di said...

Shana-shana-bo-bana-banana-fanna-fo-fana-me-my-mo-mana-shana!

Please come back.

That is all.

Annalisa said...

yah, i keep hearing all this stuff that everyone is out to get the mormons because they passed prop 8....lol and i'm like ummm, not just mormons voted to pass prop 8. and great...now we have the supreme court deciding if its even legal to add an amendment to the constitution when before they said they needed an amendment to reverse the issue and blah blah blah...they keep flipping the rules so that the galos will win. blah! for me prop 8 is about having the right to say no to their lifestyle and not being forced to jail for a hate crime. i don't hate the person, just what their doing. its just like i hate a murderer because of what they did and not who they are...whatever. i'm babbling. sorry!! i make no sense sometimes.

Wayneman said...

Shanabug, I remember feeling so angry, scared, and protective all at once as I attempted to drive out there to "rescue" you. But, I only managed to get about 1 mile down Santa Monica Blvd because the traffic created by the protesters was almost as hate-filled as the protesters themselves.

Needless to say, I think they greatly hinder their own cause by protesting in front of an LDS temple with signs such as "vile mormons" and "Joseph Smith - prophet, polygamist, pedophile."

The venom was palpable and it is sometimes hard to turn the other cheek, but could you imagine if we, who are LDS, didn't?

We'd certainly be accused of leaving our moral high ground, and justify and even validate their accusations of bigotry towards us.

What a shame.

I feel, and never have felt, hatred towards ANY gay person,

EVER.

But the real test is, can I feel so now, when so many of them and their sympathizers are protesting so vehemently, what we term "the House of the Lord", our beloved temple?

Wayneman said...

To clarify, "I DON'T feel, and never have felt, hatred towards ANY gay person..."

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